The day I have been waiting for is ALMOST here!

You guys! In five days Scott and I will be home owners!!! I honestly felt like this day would never ever come, but its looking me right in the face saying “I’m right here bitch” and I’m slightly terrified. How do I feel after three months of waiting? nervecited, its nervous and excited slammed together and i just made it up, feel free to make it a thing.

Scott and I have finally figured out colors (kind of) by that i mean he finally realized that it doesn’t matter how much he thinks a color looks like a different one to him, that grey is  absolutely not green. I let him pick out what colors he liked over and over again until I found ones I like within his range of taste. I can’t tell you how many times “this blue looks nice” was directed at me only for me to tell him that it was lilac and not a very light blue. The colorblind struggle is real, and it runs wild.

I feel like a stressed out maniac though, because I have a whole storage unit to move, a bedroom of things to move, we have to buy a washer and dryer, paint the entire house, and figure out how to move the parrot and ferrets. *side note* did I tell you guys I got a parrot? His name is clyde and he’s a blue crowned conure, and we’re finally getting to the point where he trusts me. Any way, back to what I was saying, I have so much to do, and not nearly enough time to figure it all out! Main point? I’m stressing the fuck out.

All in all, I’m happy. Everything is working out. Im not dead or near death today, I have goals set for the week to come, and I don’t have to worry about the house deal falling through anymore. So, HOORAY for all of that. Things are looking up. Now I wish I had cake to top this all off.

I know this was just a bunch of rambling, but if you’ve been here long enough you know that thats just me being who I am. I’m sorry and you’re welcome.

Lets throw this back baby!

So, I have been in a bit of a funk lately, if you haven’t noticed. When i feel like writing something I cant think of anything and when I don’t feel like writing or am completely unable to write, I have a million ideas and a thousand things to say. I mean, I quickly forget about them the second I go to jot them down, because who would I be if I didnt to that, amirite? I was thinking about how social media used to be so simple when i was younger and it was new, it was about talking to my friends, not getting likes on a post. It was about being in the top 8 of multiple friends on Myspace and getting into feuds with those that wouldn’t place you in their top 8. Let me also clarify- I was in middle/high school when myspace was a thing, so that may have been the source of the feuds as well.

It got me thinking though, you know what I miss? Myspace surveys. I would spend HOURS doing those things. So, I whipped out the ol trusty google machine and found one that im going to do, right here, right now. Usually I save this for the end, but I feel like I owe it to you now.. I’m sorry, and you’re welcome. LETS THROW IT BACK BABY!

1. I wish I had more….

money. 😉

2. I wish people were….

Stalking me, at least i know im interesting a little bit if i have a stalker.

3. I wish I was …

not overheated at this current moment, this laptop is FRYING my legs.

4. I wish my friends…

were not busy with “families” and “working” all the time.. dont they know im the center of the universe?

5. I wish for…

more wishes. I dont see any rules against that. Fight me Susan

6. If I had a million dollars I would….

be set for life with the right investments.

7. If I could fly I would….

never have to face my fear of airport anxiety

8. I dream of a better….

espresso machine, mines on its last leg,

9. The rain reminds me of….

my mom.

10. I fear….

fucking everything all the time. and also not that much. its complicated

11. Stormy nights are….

the best nights. I sleep so well.

12. The sea is like….

am I supposed to come up with a simile for these ones? I was never good at that.

13. Eyes are…

for seeing? what else would they be for? smelling? although, can you imagine?

14. I cannot stand when….

my knees hurt. arthritis is one son of a bitch.

15. A song that reminds me of love is….

lips of an angel…just kidding, probably would have said that in 2005 though. ummmm, thinking out loud by ed sheeran? its my wedding song.

16. Love is….

bringing me a pb&j when i didnt ask

17. Hate is….

giving me strawberry or grape jelly.

18. Death is….

expected at some point.

19. Flowers are….

bee attracters.

20. If I could grow….

Like two inches taller that’d be nice. 5’1″ is not the best height for anything.

21. I would like….

to find out the mysteries of the world at some point

22. I need more….

shorts. its hot AF and im running out of clean clothes and i dont want to do the laundry

23. I wish I had less….

time to wait before we close on our house.. its been SO long here.

24. I would like to give….

anyone who is still reading this a big gold star and a hug. You’re a real trooper.

25. Life is….

dull as fuck. I should probably do something about that

26. My mom is….

a badass wonder woman. She has 4 needy adult children that she never has abandoned by the side of the road, though at some points im sure seemed tempting. We’re all ungrateful assholes

27. Poems are…

sometimes thoughtful, but cheesy most of the time.

29. Life can be so….

good. Im lucky I am where I am today.

30. Dreams are….

strange. I had a dream the other night that Scott adopted like 10 dogs and then wouldn’t let me lay in the dog pile with them. rude.


Well.. there you go a Myspace survey that surely chased you away from me forever. Please dont go! My ego I need you!

Again, Im sorry and you’re welcome.

(really though please come back, im not normally like this I swear.)

You know what’s funnier than 24?

That’s right ladies and gents. As of august 4th, I am another year older! Hold the applause, I know, it’s impressive I have made it this far. 

I always get excited for my birthday, although I’m not sure why. I go in with expectations of it being great and happy but it’s always a let down. Nobody gives a shit about your birthday but you. That’s the adult lesson you have to learn. 

 I spent my birthday sitting around my grandma’s house watching my nephew because the world doesn’t stop for anyone to celebrate. He was very great about it though, he told me we could do whatever I wanted because it’s my “special day” 😭my heart can’t contain how sweet that boy is. We spent a while playing Mario kart because I love it, and even though he isn’t a fan of it, he enjoyed it with me. 

Scott had to work so we didn’t get to do anything too extravagant, but we did go to a sports bar and have a mojito or two. *side note* I still think it’s weird that a sports bar is one of the only places in the area that you can get a good mojito.  ALSO have you ever had Idaho nachos? Because they’re amazing. Waffle fries covered in nacho toppings…uh YES PLEASE!!!! 

I also spent my birthday being slightly jealous and extremely happy for my sister, because it was her birthday as well, and I think she probably had the best birthday ever. Before you get confused and say I didn’t know you had a twin!? I don’t. My little sister is a no good birthday stealer. The little jerk had to come say hello to the world on my third birthday. Which I dubbed at the time “the best birthday present ever” tbh, she’s the only birthday present I have never misplaced. 

She left on the 1st to go travel Europe. So she was in London for our birthday, along with her best friend. She got to freaking see a Shakespeare play at the freaking globe theater. Not to mention, it was my favorite Shakespeare play. Much ado about nothing😒 I’m not jealous. Really though I’m very happy for her. I couldn’t imagine a better 22nd birthday for her. 

Over all my birthday wasn’t the worst birthday I have ever had. Surely it beats out the one where I had strep throat and was dead the entire day. And it beats my 21st birthday, where I went out at midnight, and slept off a hangover for the entirety of my birthday. 

Hopefully 25 will be the year I get my adulty shit together. We’ll see though 😏