Im done being an adult

I’ll hand in my adult card and move back in with my parents, I’m over it. I am done being an adult. 

As I said a while ago, Scott got the flu. That resulted in him missing work. Yes, he has sick pay, but he works more than 8 hours on a typical day. We are literally short on our bills by one dollar. ONE FUCKING DOLLAR. That excludes the fact that we need to have money for gas and groceries. I have no idea what to do about that. 

I am in a current state of stressed out and I feel like barfing and crying. Actually I already cried. This is the first time in my adult life where we have not been able to pay our bills on time, in full. 

I don’t want to be an adult anymore. Yeah, I can have cake for dinner and nobody can tell me that I can’t. Beyond that, it’s terrifying. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to stop my anxiety from revving this up to a million. I feel like my world is crumbling. 

We don’t have any savings, any money set aside has gone into the purchasing of our house. (It wasn’t much money to begin with)

Part of me wants to beg strangers on the internet for money. But the morally sound side of me says that’s the wrong thing to do. You don’t get money by begging for it, you earn it. Most of me wants to call my mom and ask her to help because I know she will, because I have the most wonderful kind mother on the planet that will make sure her children are fed and taken care of even if they’re all grown up. Most of me wants to hide in my bed and cry for the next 2 weeks when we have money again so I don’t have to see if the world falls apart.

I’m screaming out to the abyss of the internet right now for answers, WHAT DO I DO? 

11 thoughts on “Im done being an adult

  1. Hang in there 😊. I had the same situation last week and I’m happy that we are able to cope up. Adult life is super hard, and our parents are our haven, I hope you get through this. Cheer up!

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  2. I know it seems like it totally sucks to even consider asking your parents for help once you’ve moved out, because isn’t moving out meant to be about independence and standing on your own two feet?! Sure.. but i don’t think there’s any shame in asking for a little bit of help when you really need it! That’s part of what immediate family is – support. Maybe decide on a repayment plan to give back bit by bit once you can? You say your partner has been ill, and I don’t know your full situation but by the sounds of it once he’s back up and running you guys will find a steady flow to manage everything. Breathe! Things have a way of working out 🙂 I hope things get better for you soon.

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    1. I was having a bit of a panic attack last night, even so, thanks for the kind advice and support. I have calmed down quite a bit and i now feel a bit better, and found some potential temporary solutions to my problem.

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      1. Ah, that’s crappy 😦 Glad to hear you’re getting closer to figuring this all out though. Considering you’ve literally only just bought your place etc, i think the stress is a given! But i also recon it can only get easier and one day you’re gonna look back laughing as a super proud home owner. (Sorry if this all comes across a bit ignorant and weird btw.. I realise I’m just a random stranger! But I wish you all the best :))

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      2. Woo name adjacent! my mom threw an H in my name to make it so much more frustrating for people to spell and so many people pronounce it Nic-hole, like, theres not a hole in my name! Its super nice to meet you as well and i’m glad we aren’t strangers anymore!

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      3. It’s actually so interesting to hear that people struggle to pronounce your name… All my life people have been automatically throwing the extra h in! Like no, please don’t complicate my name. Please. It’s so simple. I even had a bookmark made for me with my name spelt wrong… We seem to be blessed with a name that’s more complex than anyone would ever have imagined. Ha!

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